Faith

Latley,( and most of the time) I havn't felt whole. Maybe the best way to describe it, is that there is a space not filled-in, in my spirit or soul. A peice missing in my spiritual puzzle. I can't be certain, but I think it may be a need for congregation. A coming together of like minds.
 
I have been raised with various religions around me  I have been around spirtiual gatherings of all sorts I have formed a general knowing as to what god is , at least in my own inerpretations. But I've never been able to find an organized religion that seems to support my feelings on god. I think that finding a group of people who veiw the spiritual world the same way as me would be lightening to my spirit.But how I've learned religion and faith is not like how most do. I've been exposed to so much!
 
I am sometimes jealous of thoose who are " Born again" Christians who can belive evrery thing their pastour tells them. They know and believe in their heart that they will be saved and go to heaven if they follow the bible and attend church on Sundays.I don't mean to offend anyone but I believe that this is ignorance of the true meaning of the word. And in this case I think that ignorance is bliss.
 
However in my mind I have learned more than just what the bible says, and with knowledge comes responsibility, So then I teach myself more and more. Sometimes I wish I havn't learned all that I have so that I could just follow one story, one belief.
 
My beliefs and faiths to the spirit world have complicated themself into somthing more felt and known emotionally than can be expressed in any words. So even if there was another out there with the same beliefs, I don't know how we would communicate it. I am almost certain if finding even only one other has been hard to this point, that a whole congregation wold be even harder.
 
I hope I find a way to fill this hole in my being. I may feel alone but in the mean time, I have my faith, and I have prayer. Maybe one day there will be an answer. Time to stop thinking so deep and get out and enjoy the world!